I'm back from my sugarcraft class. I was really fired up to start my Christmas Fairy, but have fell foul with Lack of Inspiration. I am keen to be able to do all sorts of fairies. First of all I added too much dye to the paste for the skin/body etc, so the poor fairy was orange. No such thing as a Chav Fairy. I added lots more white and it got a bit better, but not much. So I bagged that up, with a thought of adding some brown to it to make it into the log the fairy can sit on. I made the head, body, arms and legs. What do I do next? Let the pieces dry and work on the rest of the display. This is where I got proper stumped. I didn't have the board to put it on, so couldn't prepare the base or do the log. The teacher suggested doing other things and to look at other peoples for inspiration. I started doing a snow man, that got squished. I thought I could do a lamp. I began that, but didn't have the correct thickness of wire to support that. I decided to do a small lamp that could sit on the log.
Inspiration! I thought. That thought was short lived as I just couldn't get my lamp to look right. By that point I knew I really wasn't in the mood for this and what ever I did wouldn't work out. I know what I'm like when I get like this. Trying to do anything remotely creative is well off the cards. Such a shame! But best in the long run for me to walk away and try again another time. I have learned this lesson many times, and try to heed to it when it calls! The only trouble is that sometimes I just want to do something creative but the creative juices just don't flow, so I spend ages trying to find something to do and end up getting quite frustrated with myself. *
I had a look on another blog and saw some hand rolled beeswax sheet candles. Easy! I thought, I could make them and they will look sooooo pretty. I found somewhere online where I could buy some beeswax sheets from at a reasonable price. Actually the site looked pretty useful - full of tips and how to roll the candles and how much beeswax you needed for what candle size etc. I was starting to take a serious look at the colours to order some.
I then thought STOP! Think about what you are doing! Transferring your need to do something and have a result. All I would achieve tonight would be to order some sheets. It would be a whim to compensate for not being creative and achieving tonight. I have bookmarked the page and will look at it when I am feeling more creative.
What I really need to do for my Christmas Fairy project is to do the base and log and PLAN other things I may want to include, like a fir tree. I need an overall idea and go with that, And not beat myself up that I didn't do much or couldn't think of much tonight. Now that would be an achievement!
* When I used to get like this with my knitting and really couldn't decide what to do (because of the type of mood I was in), or when I was at odds with myself, I'm sure most people can relate to this, I used to have pre-prepared projects for such occasions. I would put together a simple project that would need little concentration and was straightforward to do. It would be a pretty thing and I knew I would like it when I was finished, so I knew I wasn't knitting for the sake of it. I would find a pattern - usually for a cloth, and put some lush ball of cotton/yarn with it. A ball that would cheer me up as I looked at it. Sometimes I'd even put the needles with it, so I would be ready to go and need to locate nothing. These little project bags worked absolute wonders for me. I have told a few friends about the idea, they have tried it and they found great success with it. It's also good when you're down in the dumps and need a quick boost of 'look what I've made!' Try it!